Note: this is Part I on insomnia, focusing on PTSD. Part II will recommend supplements and more that can further help you regain yourself.
This is a very personal post. I have had C/PTSD as well as the genetic disease MTHFR c667t which I will write at another time. Homeless for most of last year, I went broke living in motels. PTSD nightmares were frequent visitors.
In January when another trauma occurred I followed my usual path and joined an online trauma recovery group but in short time I realized I knew more than the teacher so I got out and began devotedly practicing some the things that I will now share with you. Very early on I learned: if you are in PTSD nightmare WAKE YOURSELF up and if you are safe, recognize this: I AM SAFE.
CHANGING YOUR LIFE USING FOCUS AND INTENTION
First, let me give the advice you will get from me often: Get off all processed foods. Much that is in them are neurotoxins especially from GMO’s (glyphosate which is more toxic than Agent Orange according to one geneticist I respect.) Sugar we now know causes inflammation and the last thing we need is brain inflammation or any other part of our body. EAT WHOLE ORGANIC FOOD. If you are low-income, SNAP has a special farmers market bargain. Look into that but eat simply; you will feel better.
Secondly, learn to understand that no matter how abused or traumatized you are, are perfect just as you are. You have not sinned; you came here perfect and mistakes are normal and acceptable. There are many spiritual and religious practices that teach of our human perfection, no matter how flawed we see ourselves now. If no spiritual ideal suits you, call on sports metaphors and just try IMAGINING yourself as a champion because you are. The more you can believe this the better you will sleep.
If Sports does not call you maybe Quantum Physics will:
What We are Intending is a New POSITIVE FEELING of SELF
From a quantum physicist: “The amazing thing is that every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all star dust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements – the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution – weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way they could get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget Jesus. The stars died so that you could be here today.”
― Lawrence M. Krauss,
For more evidence enjoy this TED Talk, there are many of these: We are all Stardust.
If you do speak your story, speak as a hero as you begin, and I am here to help, to re-write your biography into one of a hero. CHOOSE WHO YOU WANT TO BECOME. In physics we are always becoming more. Post pictures of heroes on your walls.
Hopefully some of these will help you understand: YOU ARE A MIRACLE and your place here is important no matter what you have gone through. Nothing can change this.
I have mentioned waking yourself up when you have a nightmare and recognizing where you are NOW. All the ideas above lead me to my next suggestion: go to sleep noticing yourself as a miracle or a hero (I sing in the shower before bed). GO TO BED IN A GOOD MOOD and the chances are, over time, you will sleep better and WAKE UP IN A POSITIVE MOOD is highly likely. I also listen to inspirational talks and play scrabble online. I have FUN.
Also learn what good sleep hygiene is and use it. Here are the basic guidelines: https://sleepfoundation.org/sleep-topics/sleep-hygiene
While WiFi is not considered very healthy, I enjoy ear buds in my ears and before sleep I watch a beloved film on my laptop; I learned this trick in an FB Trauma recovery group. Even if it one you watch the same one over and over. Then as you fall asleep, switch to one of the many deep sleep meditations to listen to over night. This is my favorite:
Here is a book by a woman I did sound healing with. Eileen Mckusick is on Facebook if you want to contact her or a student. As I find more books, I will post them. Eileen is leading edge. If it intrigues, follow that passion; search YOUTUBE and learn about binaural and other auditory healing methods.
Lastly, and Most Importantly, Each day for 15 minutes, Meditate
Make it your life blood. Let happiness be your intent. Treat yourself to the wonderful app on your phone: Insight Timer: https://insighttimer.com/ It is a really fun app; not only can you search for meditations, relaxations, kid’s meditations and nature sounds, you can see how many, near and far are meditating with you. Play with it; get to love it as I do. There are two specific to PTSD and many for sleep. Let FEELING, SENSING JOY, be your deepest intention. I will post more on meditation in time.
While my method of dealing with PTSD is pretty unique, based on my learning and experience, all of this has become very popular now as the growing field of positive psychology.
BTW, I have tried just about every therapy there is, know leaders in the field of trauma treatment and been trained as a somatic therapist. I have come to believe therapy often re-traumatizes and while looking back and making sense of what occurred, if done in a very special way, can help. In my view, much therapy re-traumatizes. Here is a link to a Psychology Today article with a check list as to what therapy should and should not being doing for you.
WHAT MATTERS IS THIS MOMENT
Reread all the memes from above. I will return soon and suggest supplements to help.
To sum up. 1. Eat clean. 2.Focus on who you are, truly. Imagine yourself well and gifted and FOCUS on that one. I forgot to mention to search Google Images for any of these kinds of images I have posted here; I have them posted all over my walls. 3. Use good bed hygiene. 4. Meditate, meditate, meditate. Here are a few books on Positive Psychology.